Relief |
By Rebecca Miller - August 19, 2008[Editor’s Note: Over the years, I have suffered from mild pain in my hips or lower back due to a slight curvature in my spine. For some reason, pain had escalated in my left hip over the last six months. Perhaps this was due to having my fourth child in October 2007. Daily the pain would start in my left hip so that I was in pain by nightfall. If my physical load was lighter, it would not start hurting until the afternoon. Or sometimes it would start off in the morning. But every day, the pain would build without fail. Emotionally I was feeling overwhelmed with this pain. With four children ages 8 and under, I needed my strength. It was disheartening to need to walk across the house in order to change a diaper and feel overwhelmed by that simple task. The words that always came to my mind regarding my hip joint as I walked across the house were “dry” and “grinding.” I cried out to God and asked Him to heal me of whatever was causing pain. On Saturday, July 26, 2008 I was able to attend another
Ministry Team Training at The morning of the July 26th conference, I thought, "If anyone mentions anything about left hip pain today, I'm getting up!" During the afternoon session, a regular part of the Ministry Team Training is to practice listening for a word from the Lord concerning needs of healing. Sure enough, at the afternoon session, someone got "left hip." I raised my hand in response. At the end of the “listening” time, I went forward to join the group of believers who were to pray over my hip. A sister in Christ placed her hand on my left hip, and the team prayed for me. At one point, a college aged girl got a word- “lubrication.” I thought to myself - "Yes, Lord! That is exactly what I need for this dry, grinding hip." I had not shared anything about my hip pain with the team. It was neat to hear this very fitting word. The same girl also received another word, which I have had a hard time recalling since that day. It is something similar to “strife” or “conflict” - I remember thinking that I definitely related to the word in regard to the spiritual war within me while mothering my children. I had been struggling for years to show the love of Christ, while often feeling incredible anger or frustration. How wearying it was to “lose it” with the children so often. How often had I asked the Lord to release me from this inner war? Very, very often... I thanked the team for their prayers, but had nothing to
report when they asked me if anything felt different. The pain had not
started yet that day, since it had been a very easy day for me
physically, attending the conference. I stood talking with a lovely
older Christian woman named Carolyn afterwards, who happened to be a
member at The day wrapped up, and once again I was blessed by
joining the believers at It took me a while longer to recognize that the war
within me toward my children has been greatly relieved. Of course, with
four young children, the days are a whirlwind. But I have not felt that
hot anger inside of me swell up. What a wonderful relief! Praise God for His mercies! Rebecca I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the
glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so
that you may know him better. I pray also that the eyes of your heart
may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has
called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, and
his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is like the
working of his mighty strength, which he exerted in Christ when he
raised him from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the
heavenly realms, far above all rule and authority, power and dominion,
and every title that can be given, not only in the present age but also
in the one to come. And God placed all things under his feet and
appointed him to be head over everything for the church, which is his
body, the fullness of him who fills everything in every way (Ephesians
1:17-23).
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